Jan 1, 2005
 
I suppose its about time that I posted something on here. Actually, its the first time I've been at a computer console in 5 weeks (save my laptop).
 
From Daniel 3 16 Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego replied to the king, "O Nebuchadnezzar, we do not need to defend ourselves before you in this matter. 17 If we are thrown into the blazing furnace, the God we serve is able to save us from it, and he will rescue us from your hand, O king. 18 But even if he does not, we want you to know, O king, that we will not serve your gods or worship the image of gold you have set up."
 
I decided about a week ago that if I ever got around to posting, this would be in my first post. It's an example of the type of faith that I want to have, that I'm asking God to give me. I believe that if Jesus would so much as allow me to glimpse his backside, to touch the hem of his cloak, he could heal me completely. However, I also realize that it is possible that God would be glorified even more through a different result to this situation. I want to be able to say, "I know that our God will heal me, but even if he doesn't I will still praise him for who he is."
 
So, everyday I'm doing the best I can with what God gives me. In classes, I'm working hard learning to function as a paralytic, though I believe that in 6 months, it will be unnecessary (though fun to be able to do wheelies and go up curbs in a chair). And I'm doing the best I can at the things I need to do to get healthier - like trying to make myself eat, though my stomach has shrunk significantly and often feels upset.
 
If I am healed, I will praise God. And if I am not, I will praise God, knowing that there are new and great adventures - good works prepared in advance through Christ Jesus - prepared for me.
 
In the in between times, I'm enjoying having visitors, and can't thank my family enough for being with me the entire time since the accident.
 
Actually, if you want to visit, check in with my mom (cell phone number 970-231-5692) or another family member first, but I would be glad to have you - though our visit may have to be short as I am a busy guy these days, constantly having therapy sessions, classes, and various medical procedures and tests. Oh yeah, and I get really tired sometimes.
 
Thank you all so very much, I can't really express how much I appreciate the support and the prayers - they really do keep me running sometimes. I usually read printed copies of the posts when I'm in bed resting between things, and it really keeps me motivated to fight hard, and reminds me how blessed I am to have such a wonderful spiritual family.
 
Again, thank you, and I look forward to reading more posts, or seeing you in person, or something of the sort.
 
In the grace of God that has been covering me for the last 5 weeks,
 
Daryl Holmlund

Spring of 2004